It Has Been One Week and I Am Still Popping Positive

To be quite honest, the phrase "popping positive" has been the only positive experience of Covid thus far. It is almost as pleasing to say that phrase as it is non fun to live that phrase. 

Ok, not really, but I have always thought that words with P's and B's are the most fun to say. 

Just try saying "Bubble Bath" like Maya Rudolph's Hormone Monstress and tell me it doesn't make you smile. It works for me every time. 

Also, bubble baths have been one of my regular activities while I've been been in the sick bay. One of the few things that feel "normal" right now. 

So I've been spending a lot of time in there. I am almost out of bath bombs, though, so I'll have to get some more. 

I still haven't found a good source for bath bombs since my favorite company stopped selling them. So I've just been buying them from random places, trying to find something, anything as good as they were. 

What did I like about them? Welp, here is a list:

• Made by humans and not a corporation
• Fruit or food scents - NO FLORALS, plz
• Very moisturizing
• Will not stain the sides of the bathtub

This last one is pretty important to me, because it's so annoying to take a bath and then be left with a dirty ring you have to clean from a BATH BOMB. I get so irrationally angry when this happens. 

So if you have a suggestion for a new bath bomb company, please let me know. I will TRY IT! I will also accept shipments of mystery bath bombs too if you wanna send me something local to try!

What else have I been doing with my time in quarantine? NOT MUCH. 

I've been watching a lot of TV and movies. Well, rewatching, because my brain doesn't really feel like letting me do much else right now. And that's the most important thing for me is to keep my brain busy.

Cause we know what happens when it's not, right? It gets MEAN. I assume it's mean all the time on one of the streams of consciousness that are running in there but I only "tune in" to it when I'm not occupied elsewhere. 

Even if I "tune in" by accident (out of boredom or distraction or whatever) I still find it really hard to turn of that stream of audio once it gets started. So that's been a fun challenge. 

However, this has been an excellent indicator of the progress I've been making in the brain area. Previously where I'd let these looping thoughts consume me... now once I move on, the thoughts are gone. I've trained myself to let them go if they don't serve a purpose. 

So that's good, yay me.

I've also been doing some art. You've seen some of the digital stuff on my Facebook page, but I've also done some more stuff!

One thing is this dance floor ghostie pumpkin which I created for the Melvindale Library Pumpkin Decorating contest. 

I am happy to have finished this, but looking at it also makes me kind of sad, because I know there are two giant ghosties in our white garage that I wanted to finish before Halloween for my seasonal display, but I don't have the energy to drape starch liquid-soaked cloth and install the lights to finish it. 

Oh well, there is still hope I'll get well enough in time to finish it. Or worse comes to worse, I'mm have all year to work on some really elaborate ghosts for next year. 

This is a thing my brain is really beating myself up over - asking why I took so long to get this done and reminding me that I am terrible at finishing projects. My brain really wants me to feel guilt over this project. But the ghosties are sturdy enough that they'll be used for many years to come. 

So my brain should just shut the fuck up on this matter. The end. 

Another thing that has been taking up some of my time the past few days is making these 3D ghosties.

One night in the middle of the night, I'm tossing and turning by myself (with Bedtyme Snoopy, LA Bryan Snoopy and Gibeon) in this massive king bed trying to fall asleep, when I had this idea. 

I could use hot glue to make 3d ghostie patterns on canvas. 

So I tried it on a canvas.

And then I painted the shapes over and over and over. 

And then I woke up and did it all again. 

I'm so nervous to paint on the faces. 

So that's it. I feel like I'm getting increasingly lazier as the days progress. 

But at least the view out of the window is nice.